. . . I only wish I were able to launch into the fullness of Christ and embrace the whole world in my love.132
She might be tired and discouraged at times, but when she was caught up into the universe of thought from which she drew her daily strength it was a different matter. Of her subjective life at this time she would write later:
For three years after my discovery, I sought the solution of this problem of Mind-healing, searched the Scriptures and read little else, kept aloof from society, and devoted time and energies to discovering a positive rule. The search was sweet, calm, and buoyant with hope, not selfish nor depressing. I knew the Principle of all harmonious Mind-action to be God, and that cures were produced in primitive Christian healing by holy, uplifting faith; but I must know the Science of this healing, and I won my way to absolute conclusions through divine revelation, reason, and demonstration.133
This was the inner history recorded in her manuscripts.
Mrs. Glover paid Kate Porter seven dollars to copy the manuscript she expected to have published. There is no evidence as to just what it was.
It was almost certainly not the “notes on the entire book of Genesis” which she mentioned in the letter to her friend in Rumney. These notes were to be Volume One of her projected book “The Bible in its Spiritual Meaning,” but they were never offered to a publisher or even shared with her students. They represent Mrs. Glover’s private sharpening of a tool of spiritual research. She soon decided that it was undesirable to continue this way through the whole Bible, but out of the experience and understanding gained by working on the Genesis notes she eventually forged the Key to the Scriptures which was added to later editions of Science and Health.
132 Mary Baker Glover to Sarah O. Bagley, 10 June 1869, L07798, MBEL.
133 Eddy, Science and Health, p. 109.